The only way out...is through

The only way out is through,
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through...ultimately
~ Out is Through, Alanis Morissette

i'm done. no, i lied. i feel done, hell, i felt done the day i said good riddance to my thesis...which came back to me because i had good "reportable" findings which i MUST share with the world, so they will be published, but before that, i need to revise it further. great.

in a week's time, i will no longer be a college student. today was my last class. ever. at NYU.

.................did i miss something?

thanks to my new-found facebook addiction, my old ghosts have been coming back to haunt me...sometimes i feel like i'm still stuck in high school...or even 6th grade, for that matter...so where did the past 4 yrs of college go?

wherever they went, i suppose they paid off...hence i'll be in school for another 5 yrs getting a doctorate in clinical psychology. 5 years...this time, in the same city...i haven't spent 5 yrs in the same city since i was 7. i haven't been living near family since i was 14. talk about your full circle.

question is, will i look back in 2011 and think "where did those 5 yrs go?"

high school seemed to go on forever...college flew by...the amount of free time u have makes the difference i guess. which ofcourse, by 2011, i won't even know what "free time" means.

i dont want to romanticize my college years like i did with my high school years...i dont want to gloss everything over and pretend like it was all worth it in the end. i had some shitty times and i had some of the greatest moments of my life...things i learned from and things that were just plain unnecessary. but yes, a chapter of my life has come to an end...and another one begins.

at this point, i hope that i make it out, make it through, and make it through well.