True Entry

For the fist time I'm actually WRITING an entry in the truest sense of the word. After 5 weeks of crying, hyperventilating, and crumbling under stress, I finally have a laptop... that comes a touchpad and pen -meaning that I can write this in my very own hand-writing and then transfer it into regular text. Although in today's world, typing comes as easily as written script, there is still a unique flow to writing with a pen in your hand.


Anyways, my life seems to come back to normal (whatever that is) every 5 minutes or so, before it hurls me off into a whole new direction. I feel tired and drained, yet I'm also fascinated at the same time by my abundant energy and mental/physical resources that keep me going. It's like watching yourself drop from a very high rollercoaster, but you can't close your eyes because you want to see what lies ahead in store for you. There is just one thing you want the most, the one thing you can't have... TIME.

I need more TIME, I want more TIME.... I could get everything sorted out and right and perfect if I just had more TIME.

Damn it all.

MIA

hello everyone,
i want to apologize for not keeping you updated, but i have been going through one nervous breakdown after the other...cus when it's your last semester and your laptop crashes, you lose the memory stick that contained your back-up data, you drop your cell phone 24 stories down the garbage chute, and then the repair store loses your fixed laptop while you're running around all over the east coast attending grad school interviews and missing your flights because you're so exhausted...you find it difficult to blog.

so i'm going through alot...a chapter of my life is coming to an end while another begins...it's scary, uncertain, and the whole thing just leaves me overwhlemed. do i take stress upon myself? yes, i do, but it's not all me.

let's just say i'm in the midst of finding my own true voice.

love,
the singer.