i am not

i am not ready to talk about halls and color schemes and invitation prints

i am not ready to calculate and budget and schedule anything beyond next week

i am not ready to have insane amounts of money spent on any occasion when millions around me dont have food to eat, clothes to wear, and a school to attend

i am not ready, not able, not willing to put my life on hold

i am not ready to deal with the plethora of uncalled for advice

i am not, not yet, not now.

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