Disdain

I find creativity in the loneliest of places,

Lost to be found between unfamiliar faces

I crave the past to return

Where there was room to be inspired

Now I'm covered in head to toe with disdain,

Contempt and no desire

Shadows, do you see me?

I'm covering my tracks

Escape seems so easy

Until you're faced with the facts

We rode alongside the sea shore

Early in the dank morning light

Sharing stories and laughter

Which today

Seem so far away

I am left now with a hunger

For something I can't describe

The cracks in my soul 

Have opened a hole

And I'm too afraid to look inside

I feel myself pulling back

Away from this rancid,

This wretched embrace you offer now

I refuse to be engulfed in your misery

I will not take on this pain,

This persona of disdain

For I have made my offer

And there is no room for compromise

No room for bargain

I have nothing more to sacrifice

You have nothing more to gain

My time, my energy, 

My every ounce of empathy

Has diminished due to your apathy

So now I turn to unfamiliar places

To look for familiar faces.