*you're a child, but you're malicious
you're sweet but don't remember my name*

how many times have i tried,
and why do i feel so helpless now
so hard i tried to understand you
but until now i did not know how

you are my essence, my love
my only reason for being
how could i have been so deaf
for so long,
how could i avoid seeing?

my child, i apologize
for this day took too long
just remember that i tried
whenever you hear this song.

*Grey Matter~Jewel*

Surprise Surprise

this one is for anarchy/pollo diablo/gajar/whatever u call ur self these days ...cus i always give u info u "dont need".

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Crushed

Trapped in the darkest corner
Hung in stifling air
A rat sniffing at my feet
Haunting me with his glare

The walls come pounding down
I can feel them beating in my skull
The room chokes me with its rage
It echoes in my head still

I know not of time
Nor of what wrongs I commited
There is a thought stuck in my throat
And swallowing it has been forbidden

Flattened by my guilt
Trampled by my past
Unable to bow my head in shame
I wonder how long this will last

Steaming filth begins to pour
From the cracks in the walls as I see
Your ghost appear and whisper
"Reality is what you percieve it to be."

leave me alone

leave me alone
i'm sick of your neediness
i'm sick of your indecisiveness
i'm sick of your whining
and your constant annoying

leave me alone
i dont wanna talk
i dont wanna listen
i dont wanna understand
i dont wanna hold ur hand

leave me alone
i dont care right now
i dont wanna share right now
i dont wanna see ur face right now
and i'll do anything, say anything...
to get my space right now.

the kick-off

what now?
i forgot what i was supposed to say...oops, i mean what i wanted to say...
oh well, it probably wasnt that meaningful anyways
*sigh*
*blank stare*
maybe...
no
no what? i didnt even finish
just no
u ALWAYS do that
do what
act like u know what i'm going to say...it's...snobbish
*chuckle*
it's not funny...i'm serious
ok
anyways..u made me forget what i was going to say
"it probably wasn't that meaningful anyways"
ha ha, very funny
*shrug*
so...yeah...this is sad
why? i mean, what is?
this...us...me...
uh...ok...
i mean, what now?
what do u mean what now? now nothing, we'll just sit here and do nothing
god, i CANT not do something
hehehe...i can hear the italics in ur voice...it's funny
r u high?
no...hehehe...come on, it's funny
u're retarded
hehehe...see, now i'm speaking in italics too!
*sigh*
ok fine, i'll be serious...u happy? i'm serious
you're bold now
and you're taking things too far
fine, i'll stop
good, so will i.

*5 minutes later*

you still there?
ofcourse, i have no where else to be
that sounds funny
it does?
yeah, like, the way u said it
ok, i'll take ur word for it
oh no, i'm getting another overload
an overload of what?
thought over-load....u know?
no....explain
like, just one too many thoughts in ur head...
no comment
ugh, never mind. *pause* why r u leaving, i wasn't done yet...
oh, i thought u were
no, i just got too involved in my own head
well, u stay involved, i'm going to go
why?
cus there's no point in me being here
why do u talk like that?
talk like what?
just, u know, talk funny...
i think it's in ur head
no, it's just ur phrasing sometimes...
Why, is it because I speak in proper English most of the time?
oh, shut up
What?
i said, give it up already
You mean that's what you meant....OW, what was THAT for???
for being an ass
so? u didnt have to do that
ah, there we go, now u're back to normal
yeah, whatever...
r u mad at me?
*thinking*
well, r u mad at me? yes or no?
you're making me mad at u
u know what, just forget it
fine
good...anyways, i guess u should get going now
why, u wanna get rid of me?
no, it's just that i think u should leave
ok, fine
ok.