sing-songs

this is the song that never ends...yes it goes on and on my friends...some people started singing it, not knowing what it was, but they'll just keep on singing it forever just because this is the song that never ends...

Thursday, April 05, 2007

black-out

it was hotter than hot. the steam rose towards the ceiling as beads of sweat dripped down my forehead. i sat there, stewing away, breathing heavily and feeling my heart beat so hard i could almost see the ripples it created in the water. the pain in my back was ebbing in and out, blinding me as i tried to stand up.

i stood with my head against the cool tiles, but my breathing became heavier. my vision started to blur...and i knew it was not because of the water. i felt something heaving inside me, and i momentarily lost my hearing. i couldn't hear the water, or the traffic outside, or my gasping breath.

my eyes were playing tricks on me, and i could no longer stand up straight. i slowly slid to the floor, my back scraping against the wall. i closed my eyes as the water poured over me...






when i opened my eyes, i stared. i had no idea how long i had been down there. i was startled and frightened. my sense of hearing back, i strained to listen to the phone that was ringing continously. i got up on my wobbly legs, stumbled out, my arms flailing to grab something to cover myself, and collapsed halfway on the bed. i lay there, trying to consiously regain my breath, half talking half mumbling to get myself together. i managed to make my way across to the kitchen to get some water. i sat down and tried to focus on something, anything, to make whatever it was i saw in front of my eyes (or perhaps didnt see) dissapear. i felt something stir inside me and rushed to expunge it out.

my thoughts were racing faster than my heart. i had to calm down, but didn't know how. i guess this is what a panic attack feels like.

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