trust vs. mistrust

i woke up this morning with a startling discovery.

i was thinking about u, and how things got to be so messed up and how people so close to u, so dear to u, could be hurt in this way. i thought back to ur past, influences from ur family that may have contributed to the person u r. u r not as open, flexible, modern and liberal as u would like to appear. when, in our heated arguement, u said "but it's you who is marrying him!", i couldn't believe that u and i were close, because how could someone who knows me so well say something like that? u r cowardly and insensitive, u r sexist and in denial. u believe that women r property, and that is why i dont trust u. u have failed to see the subtle and not-so-subtle ways u have oppressed, and i know it will be painful when i carve those out for u. u claim pride in keeping up ur "guard", well u failed to see it came with a price. u have a tendency to make promises u won't keep, perhaps they stem from the confusion u're in...u think "i don't know how i feel right now or how i will feel later, so let's just say whatever to shut this person up and i'll deal with it later." u've been selfish and made many mistakes and i cant let u do that anymore.